excited no more???

i was anxious and excited to get home after my term 1 ended in trinity..but after 2 weeks here..i figure out i was kinda wrong to feel that way.. anyway i'll be going back to aussie in 6 days..ppl wonder why i am back in 2 months time..i also dunno why..i thought i miss home..wanna see all my frens..do some shopping..hang out and stuff..YET it turns out least wat i expected..

i spent most of the time..ALONE doing nothing..stupid streamyx which made me hard to go online with my laptop..so since no internet at night..solution? SLEEP!spending time with my junior bandmates was not wat i expected as well..OBVIOUSLY i missed their concert but until now..no recording to hear nor see...oh well AEOM 2006 to me is erm...nothing..pesta selangor 2006 is near..but then it seems that they are not prepare for it yet..still doing basic... "still the best?" like wat may leng posted on her blog..seriously? i dun think so anymore..ex-members are worried sick but at the same time..dun really wanna bother..just pray hard...

anyway..college life has started for most of the ppl..and currently..it's hectic and busy for them..so instead i wont bother them so much..oh well..makes me wanna go back and study asap..since everybody is hardworking studying here..ppl change after high school..quite true..i didnt even have time to see most of my frens..because of college..sigh...is it only me free? guess so...

is it a waste of cash coming back all the time? so am i suppose to spend my holiday alone..yes? no? damn it..who are u to decide if i wanna come back...i thought i can catch up on all the stuff i missed out..seems i was wrong..ppl here dun even see their old frens anymore..so busy meh? really? fine then...

i'll reconsider coming back...HAPPY? DER!